Nicole Kidman has opened up during an interview with Vanity Fair about her ex-husband, Tom Cruise, and her current husband and “great love”, Keith Urban.

Kidman and Cruise were married when she was 23-years-old, and the marriage lasted from 1990 to 2001. “I was so young,” Kidman said. “And you know, with no disrespect to what I had with Tom, I’ve met my great love now. And I really did not know if that was going to happen. I wanted it, but I didn’t want it for a while, because I didn’t want to jump from one relationship to another. I had a lot of time alone, which was really, really good, because I was a child, really, when I got married. And I needed to grow up.”

After divorcing Cruise, Kidman then married country superstar and “American Idol” judge Keith Urban. They now reside in Nashville with their two daughters, and try to remain as low key as possible. Kidman says she does not miss the Hollywood life.

“The whole business side of it — it’s too present. It doesn’t suit me,” she explained. “There’s an enormous amount you have to give up if you want to have a family. You can have a certain career, but you can’t be living in Hollywood, [where] absolutely everything, everything revolves around it. That wasn’t my choice. I’d rather revolve around somebody else’s career and then still find my own.”

“I have stepped away from the fame part of it,” she continued. “I didn’t find what I was looking for in fame. So I went, O.K., this is not for me. And it was such a blessing that I found somebody who said, ‘Well, are you willing to move to Tennessee?’ And I was ‘Oh, am I willing to move!’”

Kidman says her relationship with Urban is “very peaceful”, but like any couple they have their struggles.

“It’s a push-pull. It’s uncharted,” she said. “My husband and I are in uncharted territory because we’re trying to find artistic expression but also we’re incredibly connected as a family — we’re very, very tight, very, very close, and I have a very, very primal protection of my family.”

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