Hugh Hefner and Kendra Wilkinson are long since a thing of the past, but she recently shared what it was like to have sex with a man 60 years her senior. Kendra recently talked of her days as a Playboy Bunny and of becoming Hugh Hefner’s girlfriend on the UK version of I’m A Celebrity, Get Me Out of Here!

“I just wanted to party. And I had a damn good time. It was so much fun,” Kendra Wilkinson shared. “Hef asked me to be one of his girlfriends and live in the mansion and I was like, ‘I don’t even know what that means, but hell, yeah! I’m there!’ I was living in this (small) apartment. I was praying for anything to get me out of there. I moved in and weeks went by and I didn’t know that sex was involved. Because I knew nothing about Playboy. I had just graduated high school.”

It didn’t take long for Kendra to learn that living in the Playboy Mansion came with some expectations–on behalf of Hugh Hefner. And she learned that in order to meet said expectations, she needed some help–in the form of alcohol or marijuana.

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“I was usually very, very drunk doing those evenings, I tended not to care about much until the next day. I had to be very drunk or smoke l lots of weed to survive those nights,” she said. “At about the minute mark, I pulled away and it was done. It was like a job. Clock in, clock out. It’s not like I enjoyed having sex with him.”

Can you imagine how these sexual encounters must have scarred Kendra Wilkinson? Hugh Hefner was 78–and she was just 19–when they began having sex together.

Do you think if Kendra had it to do all over again that she would have made different decisions? Or would she had endured sex with Hugh Hefner just the same, in order to afford herself a wealthier lifestyle?