The Bachelor: Countdown to Juan Pablo special aired on Sunday, January 5, and was full of clips from the previous seasons to get fans pumped up for the newest season that premiered last night. While most of the clips were humorous, there was one that brought tears to many viewers eyes.

During the lengthy clip, tribute was payed to Gia Allemand. who was a contestant on Jake Pavelka’s season of The Bachelor in 2010. Last August, Allemand made the decision to take her own life. The clip was very emotional and showed Allemand saying: “I just hope people remember my kind heart. I have a kind heart for people. That’s what I hope people remember me for.”

Later in the clip, Allemand talks about her desire to, one day, start a family of her own. “I want two kids, and I want to adopt a baby girl from China,” she said. Sadly, that will never happen.

Donna Micheletti, Allemand’s mother, also took part in the tribute, and talked about much she loves and misses her daughter. “Gia took her own life and it is heart-wrenching and I wouldn’t want to see any other parent go through this. There is plenty of help for everyone. I just miss her. Gia was always full of such life, and she’d walk into a room and you’d feel her presence. She’d light up that room like sunshine.” Micheletti also encouraged anyone who was having suicidal thoughts to seek immediate medical attention to prevent something like this from happening again.

If you or someone you know needs help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

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