There’s not a whole lot you can say about this, except that it’s incredibly sad.
Seattle-based rapper and YouTube star (JERKTV) Frederick Eugene Buhl, better known as Freddy E, has taken his own life. Not only that, but he broadcast the moments leading up to the suicide on Twitter.
What follows is the series of tweets sent out to his 122,000+ followers. It seems to all begin with an unknown event, to which Freddy E said “my day is ruined.” He ended with a series of tweets that read “I love you mom; I love you dad; I love you Katherine; God, please forgive me; I’m sorry.” As a word of warning, what follows is raw and pretty disturbing:
Ain’t nobody thirsty… -_-
Fuck… my… life.
I’m about to delete my twitter in a second… </3
This day couldn’t get any worse…
Smoked my first pack of cigarettes today… been a long time since I’ve gone through heart break. It’s a cold unforgiving world if I do say.
It’s all bad y’all…
Cruising in the 300 Chrysler. Wishing the world could be a little brighter. But all I can seem to find is this lighter. It’s all bad y’all.
If there’s a God then He’s calling me back home. This barrel never felt so good next to my dome. It’s cold & I’d rather die than live alone.
It’s… all… bad… y’all. *puts finger around trigger*
I love you Mom.
I love you Dad.
I love you Katherine.
God… please forgive me.
His suicide has been confirmed by his father, who said that Freddy E ended his life with a rifle shot to the head. Here’s what he had to say in a Facebook post:
Today, our son, Frederick Eugene Buhl (@freddy_E), age 22 years old, took his own life with a rifle shot to the head. Our family is saddened beyond words; our loss is great; this tragedy is enormous and unforseen. Not only our family, but the world has lost a talented, sensitive, brilliant young man who lit up our existence with his. We love him a great deal, and he will be sorely missed. We pray that God will now watch over him, and we ask all of you to include Frederick and our entire family in your thoughts and prayers. Tomorrow, Sunday, January 5th, 2013, we will be attending Fred’s Church, First AME, at 12:00 PM in Seattle, WA. You are invited to join us or send your prayers. Fred would appreciate that a great deal.
Just heartbreaking. But we can’t say that we’re surprised that Twitter serves as the last broadcast for a suicide.