Amy Poehler recently shared a few of the secrets about her personal life that will be detailed in her upcoming memoir, Yes, Please.
The 43-year-old mother of two revealed that she was a drug user in her 20s, trying cocaine and ecstasy.
“I tried cocaine, which I instantly loved but eventually hated,” the Saturday Night Live star wrote in a chapter called Obligatory Drug Stories.
“Cocaine is terrific if you want to hang out with people you don’t know very well and play Ping-Pong all night. It’s bad for almost everything else… the day after cocaine is rough,” she wrote.
Poehler said she has also dabbled with Molly, a more potent form of Ecstasy, and remembered getting high on Molly at the Upright Citizens Brigade’s New Year’s Eve party.
“We all danced and drank water and loved each other,” she wrote. “I also remember the next day when I thought I had no friends and I was so sad I wanted to sink into the carpet and permanently live there.”
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But the hangovers proved to be too much for the mother of Archie, nearly six, and Abel, four.
“The next day is the thing I can’t pull off anymore,” Poehler said. “How do you explain to a four- and six-year-old that you can’t play Rescue Bots because you have to spend all day in bed eating Cape Cod potato chips and watching The Bicycle Thief?”
Poehler also revealed that she still smokes pot occasionally, but not nearly as much as she once did.
“I can’t perform, drive or write stoned, and therefore I smoke pot a lot less than I used to,” she wrote.
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The Golden Globes co-host also details her divorce from Arnett. The pair announced their separation after nine years of marriage in September 2012 and the Arrested Development star filed for divorce last April.
“Getting a divorce really sucks,” the actress wrote in her memoir. She said the divorce was just “too sad” and “too personal” to discuss in great detail.
“Imagine spreading everything you care about on a blanket and then tossing the whole thing up in the air,” she wrote. “The process of divorce is about loading that blanket, throwing it up, watching it all spin, and worrying what stuff will break when it lands.”
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Poehler said divorce makes you “feel incredibly alone,” and you are “constantly reminded by society” of how frequent and common divorce has become.
“You aren’t allowed to feel special, but no one knows the specific ways you are in pain,” she wrote.
Poehler, who is currently dating Parks and Recreation co-star Nick Kroll, said that she continues to be “proud” and “beyond grateful” that Arnett is her sons’ father.
“I don’t think a 10-year marriage constitutes failure,” she said.
Yes, Please will be released on Oct. 28.