Vivica A. Fox says that ex-boyfriend, 50 Cent, is “absolutely the love of her life.”

The rapper and Vivica A. Fox’s relationship was tumultuous at best while they were dating, and some may be surprised to hear that the considers him the love of her life.

However, on an appearance on The Meredith Vieira Show, Vivica A. Fox told the talk show host that her relationship with 50 Cent is, thus far, the most important of her life.

“He is absolutely the love of my life,” said Vivica A. Fox, 50, although she admitted that dating 50 Cent, 39, was “difficult.”

“I really, really cared for him and I loved him very, very much and I always will, but he just wasn’t right for me,” Fox told Meredith Vieira in an episode that will air on Monday. “That’s hard when you really, really love a person in your heart, you want to be with them, but you finally have to say, ‘He’s just not right for me.'”

The former couple dated for about a year and their break up in 2003 proved to be very ugly as both stars said some very ugly things publicly about each other.

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With time, Vivica A. Fox says she came to have no ill-will towards 50 Cent. She told Vieira that she was crazy in love with him at the time, but conceded that it just couldn’t work between them.

“I wish him the best, he is amazing and baby, he’s fine, but… sometimes love ain’t always right,” she said “The heart wants what it wants, but sometimes it’s just not right.”

Vivica A. Fox told the Meredith Vieira that she gained much wisdom from the experience of loving and leaving 50 Cent.

“[I learned] to trust in my heart and know to take the time not to settle,” said Fox. “I think as women sometimes we’re afraid to be alone or we think, ‘Oh my god, he’s a great catch.'”