Tila Tequila shocked her fans when she announced, via Facebook, that she was pregnant earlier this month.

While most didn’t see Tila as the kind to settle down, considering her former wild ways, Tila says that this baby has changed her life forever, saving her in ways that she never thought were possible.

Since the death of her fiancé in 2010, and a brief stint in rehab in 2012, Tila has been on a rocky ride. She revealed to US Weekly that she has never gotten to tell her side of the story, and has been on a very rough journey.

“My side of the story has never been truly told over the past five years, as I have kept so much bottled inside of me,” Tila explained.

“It has been quite a painful journey for me, and I never thought I was going to make it out alive. So to be able to do a total 180 and finally be blessed with my first child gets me so emotional that I can barely even handle it,” she continued. “The only difference is that now these tears I cry are of joy, and no longer of sadness.”

Tila has vowed to do whatever possible to give her baby a good life, and is so thankful for this blessing that has been brought into her life. “I truly feel that my baby has saved my life, and I will do whatever it takes to give my little baby the whole entire world!” she said. “I know I’m going to cry so much when the baby is finally born later this year.”

Tila’s baby is due to make his or her arrival later this year, and Tila can’t wait. She even admitted that she is already thinking about having more kids. “I never knew such a love like this could exist, but I guess motherhood can truly change some people,” she said. “I know it has definitely changed me, and I’m already thinking about having more. I just want my baby to be proud of me and to know how much I love him or her. To love someone else unconditionally is one of the best feelings in the entire world, and I hope I will have plenty more pregnancies to come.”

On April 21, Tila again took to Facebook to thank all of her fans, friends, and family for their support. In a long message, she expressed her gratitude and then continued on to apologize to those people she had hurt over the years. She said that her primary focus, as of now, is on her health and the baby.

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