Simon Cowell and his girlfriend Lauren Silverman welcomed their baby boy Eric in February 2014. While Cowell is elated to be a father, he admits that he regrets the way that his relationship with Silverman started.

Simon met Lauren through one of his best friends Andrew Silverman. Simon and Lauren’s friendship soon turned into an affair, resulting in her divorce from Andrew. “I regret that part [the affair],” Cowell told Mirror . “But then of course you have a baby and you look at the baby and you kind of go, ‘This is what happened from it. … It is not something I am proud of or wanted to happen in terms of hurting anyone. It just happened.”

Simon, Lauren, and baby Eric are currently living together in Simon’s West London home. He said that he has manned up and taken responsibility for his actions, but feels that the affair led to a better life for him. “You have to deal with it and man up to it. You have to accept the responsibility and the criticism,” Cowell explained. “My life has changed, but I am probably more focused on what I am doing now than I was a year ago. Maybe because it puts things in perspective having two people in my life who I am responsible for. … Now the house is full of people, it has become a home rather than a house.”

Simon says that he and Lauren share many common interests and credits her with giving him his “mojo” back. “The great thing about Lauren is she loves what I do, so she sits in if I am watching Britain’s Got Talent for example, and she has got a good opinion. And I seem to have got my mojo back again.”

The X Factor will not be returning to Fox so Simon is focusing the majority of his attention on his new family and the competitive television show Britain’s Got Talent.

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