Kendra Wilkinson recently admitted she thought about suicide when she heard the rumor that husband Hank Baskett cheated on her. Shortly after Kendra gave birth to the couple’s second child–a daughter named Alijah, who was born in May–rumors circulated in the tabloids about Hank cheating on her when she was eight months pregnant.

“I was at a real low. I even questioned my life,” Kendra says in a clip that promotes Friday night’s season finale of her show Kendra On Top. “If it wasn’t for breast-feeding Alijah, the bond that I had with her, I feel like I would have probably ended my life.”

“I felt like I’m not even supposed to be here,” she adds in the clip that also features her dealing with her grief of her husband’s rumored affair.

So sad. Kendra Wilkinson reveals that she contemplated suicide in the midst of her marriage scandal: http://t.co/9KXkt7uteA

— cambio (@cambio) December 4, 2014

Kendra Wilkinson will wind up this season of Kendra On Top with a two-part finale. The first, which airs tonight–December 5th–airs at 9:00 PM on We tv. The second part airs next Friday night, December 12th, at the same time.

The finale will focus on the couple’s past few months and the turmoil that ensued when the rumor rant rampant. It will also feature Kendra Wilkinson and Hank Baskett’s first sit-down interview since the inception of said rumors.

Suicide is never anything to take lightly. For Kendra Wilkinson to even consider such a step is evidence she was in a deeply depressed and desperate state of mind at that time. Hopefully she is in a far better place now, and if any such feelings remain is receiving the help she needs.

Do you think things will ever be the same again for Kendra Wilkinson and Hank Baskett? Will you be tuning in to the two-part finale of Kendra On Top?