Holly Madison has penned a memoir that takes readers inside her time at Hugh Hefner’s Playboy mansion as one of his Playboy bunnies. Called Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, Holly Madison reportedly ‘lifts the veil’ on some of the shocking aspects of having been one of Hugh Hefner’s live-in girlfriends.

“I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion,” Madison told Us Weekly. “I think my stories will surprise people and I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life.”

One of the misconceptions the Girls Next Door star no doubt wants to clear up is the notion that life inside the Playboy mansion was all fun and games. In fact, she contemplated suicide at least once during her time living there.

'I sat in a bathtub contemplating suicide' Ex-Playboy bunny reveals harsh realities of life in Hefner's mansion http://t.co/7fD8dQMP6H

— Daily Star (@Daily_Star) March 21, 2015

“Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare,” the promotional material for Holly Madison’s book states. “After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”

Ex-Playboy Bunny Holly Madison dishes on her 'nightmare' life with Hugh Hefner http://t.co/WIckKfw6Os pic.twitter.com/ortrOvBijr

— Daily Mail Celebrity (@DailyMailCeleb) March 20, 2015

Amazon.com, just one of the outlets that will sell Holly Madison’s book, writes that within its pages, Holly Madison “opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself. With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars.”

Life is much different–and considerably better–for Holly Madison these days. She is married to Pasquale Rotella, and together their are raising their little girl, Rainbow.

Thanks @usweekly for revealing my book cover for DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE on sale 6/23! Pre… http://t.co/rxOTtxdVJn pic.twitter.com/m2k04lsSol

— Holly Jean Madison (@hollymadison) March 20, 2015

Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny by Holly Madison will be released for sale on June 23rd. Do you expect she’ll have a best-seller on her hands as she shares a few things Hugh Hefner might prefer the entire world didn’t know?