Christy Mack is still recovering from the beating she allegedly received at the hands of her ex-boyfriend, Jon Koppenhaver. With a hearing she was supposed to attend postponed, and Koppenhaver under suicide watch, things have been a bit up in the air for Mack.

Koppenhaver had been able to tweet out messages to fans before his suicide watch lockdown. The content of some of those messages, as well as the content of a suicide letter he sent out to a friend, seem to indicate that he feels he was wronged by Mack, that she needs his forgiveness, and that she deserved what she got in some way.

Koppenhaver talks about a book someone sent him in jail.

“On October 7th I received a book in the mail titled “The Disappearance of The Universe” and I’d like to thank whomever sent it. I’ve really been struggling in here, dealing with this seemingly out of the blue disaster that I have been blindsided by. My entire life I have fought “forgiveness”, plotted revenge and fantasized about carrying it out…it was just my personality. Well, my entire life I have also been plagued with shit luck. No matter how much I thought I was trying to change, I was still ending up with the same results…my grandmother always told me that hate was poison; others have told me that ‘negativity’ will attract more negativity… I labeled all of that faggotry and pushed on. Well, I’m done trying the same tactics that have failed me over and over again.”

The book Koppenhaver refers to is The Disappearance of the Universe: Straight Talk about Illusions, Past Lives, Religion, Sex, Politics, and the Miracles of Forgiveness, by Gary Renard. It is often classified as a New Age book.

The book purports to be a record of multiple contacts the author had with two “ascended masters,” humans who have achieved enlightenment and no longer endure the cycle of rebirths. Their names are Arten, a man, and Pursah, a woman. The author claims they “materialized out of nowhere” and that he recorded his encounters with these two beings, but the recordings were destroyed.

During his sessions with these two, they tell him, “An ascended master is everywhere. You just can’t always see them. We seldom project more than one bodily image of ourselves at one time, and it’s always for teaching purposes.”

Their teaching consists of a long “course” that he studies and is to pass along to others, his readers.

Renard further claims that these masters once teleported him about 30 miles instantly, and one of them claimed to have been the Apostle Thomas in a past life.

With this setting, the book stresses that all humans are essentially one identity, and that forgiveness is paramount, since not forgiving another is not forgiving yourself.

With these thoughts in mind, Koppenhaver composed his tweet. He goes on to say:

“I want to be happy; I want to live a happy life. Will forgiveness work like magic? I dunno, that’d be great if it did though. One thing it can’t do, is hurt. In fact, I’m pretty sure it will most likely speed up my healing process either way. Maybe all of this happened just so that I’d make this one important change. I will apologize in advance if my lack of hate will make me less entertaining; but at the end of the day, where has my past attitude really gotten me?”

He then interjected a quote from the Bible.

“I read some Bible quote the other day: ‘It’s easy to see a splinter in someone else’s eye, but hard to see the log in your own.'”

Koppenhaver talks about the concept of forgiveness further. He posits that, as a blended identity, he, Mack, and the other man attacked at her home, all “deserve” what happened, yet are also “all innocent at the same time.”

Koppenhaver refers to this as a “new way of thinking” that he hopes “to use, out there in the real world.”