Chris Brown and Karrueche Tran have been on and off with their relationship over the last several years, but recently, when Tran found out that Brown had a child with another woman and didn’t tell her, she broke things off and says there’s no reconciling.

Tran says that Brown apologized profusely and even brought her flowers, and although she still loves him, she can’t forgive him for what he did.

“I feel hurt because the man I loved betrayed me. I will never again let a man disrespect me. I want my voice to be heard…I want to clear it up and tell my story and tell my side,” Tran said in an interview with Iyanla Vanzant.

According to a source at MStarz, Brown still wants Tran back despite the things she revealed in the interview and reportedly began following her on Instagram again.

“He’s not mad at anything she said in that interview. He just wants her back. He wants her to reminisce on all the good times they’ve shared. The love and passion that they both have for one another. Chris thinks that’s enough to jump-start their relationship. Not only that, after seeing just how hurt he made her feel, he vowed to never let her down again if they got back together,” the source said.

In the interview, Tran said there’s no possibility of reconciliation no matter how Brown tries, because she can’t take any more lies; she reportedly found out about Brown’s child on social media. However, she admits that she knows the singer loves her, and that she still has love for him.

“He’s said he’s sorry. He’s dropped flowers off. He’s sorry for what he’s put me through. There’s no making up right now. I’m trying to be my strongest. I understand what he’s put me through and I’m fed up…I still love him. I’ve changed to help him—go to church, pray, yoga, meditate—if he were to change, we would be in a better place, but that’s the problem. He did give me love. Maybe it wasn’t the right love or the same level but he’s a product of his environment growing up. There’s no doubt in my mind that Chris loves me. I know he does.”