Bruce Jenner, former track and field record holder and star of Keeping Up with the Kardashians, finds solace in living alone in Malibu. He admitted that having this freedom after years of being ushered to the spot light has been really good for him.

He confessed that he “sometimes feel so separated from the Kardashians,” as the father observed a great divide coming down between the Kardashian and the Jenner girls.

“Kardashians over here and the Jenners over here. Little me in the middle,” he told stepdaughter Kourtney Kardashian during the premiere of KUWTK.

Bruce Jenner admits to feeling “pretty lonely” in #KUWTK preview clip of Sunday’s premiere: http://t.co/hq4nc0MLgQ pic.twitter.com/KVcwHRhHik

— On Air/Ryan Seacrest (@OnAirWithRyan) March 13, 2015

Albeit his considerable isolation from cameras, Jenner’s current appearance did not escape talks and speculation regarding his true sexuality. His long hair and surgically enhanced features prompted the media to force him out of the closet.

Contrary to public “truth-digging”, Amos Mac, co-founder of the LGBTQ-focused publication Original Plumbing, cited that celebrities like Jenner “still have the right to transition, or grow their hair long, or live their life in a way that makes them feel true, and to figure out all of those things on their own terms without being rushed. Just because a public person might be transitioning doesn’t mean they need to suddenly become a mouthpiece or a representative for the trans community. Not everyone wants that role in life.”

The Kardashian-Jenner family rallied behind Jenner against news of his supposed transition from man-of-the-house to one-of-the-girls. Issues of their father being transgender were shunned and overshadowed during the KUWTK premier. His sons Brody and Brandon Jenner even threw him a “single life party”, themed “Bruce on the Loose.”

While confirmation on his transition is yet to be announced, Jenner apparently feels comfortable with dating his ex-wife’s best friend. Kris has had “the most difficult time of anyone in the family,” PEOPLE previously reported.

To his defense, Jenner claims that his ex-wife seemed pretty impenetrable during the divorce proceedings and could not have possibly felt pain.