The former husband of Amy Winehouse, Blake Fielder, is denying that he “ruined” the late singer’s life. However, guilt over what happened to Winehouse lingers.

Although Fielder claims he didn’t ruin her live, he told The Times Magazine he does “feels guilty” over what happened to the singer. He also said he’d welcome the opportunity to speak with the father of Amy Winehouse, Mitch Winehouse, to ask for his forgiveness.

Blake Fielder has been the target of much speculation, including allegations that he introduced Amy Winehouse, who died of alcohol poisoning in 2011, to hard drugs after they got together.

Mitch Winehouse once called Fielder “the biggest low-life scumbag that God ever put breath into.”

Fielder says those claims are not really fair.

“I don’t think I ruined her, no. I think we found each other and certain people need to realise that she did have other addictions before she met me,” he said. “I feel like my own legacy as far as Amy goes is that I ruined this amazing person.”

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He thinks if that was true, he would struggle to live through every day.

“She wasn’t a happy, well-adjusted young woman, you know, and I find it disrespectful to imply I was some Machiavellian puppet master,” he said of his relationship with Amy Winehouse.

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“I’d like to speak to Mitch and genuinely, genuinely plea for his forgiveness,” said Fielder. “But I won’t take responsibility for Amy passing away because it’s not fair.”

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A long-awaited documentary, Amy, made by Senna director Asif Kapadia, will be released on July 3.