Lauren Cohan opened up recently about the upcoming season 6 finale of The Walking Dead, and what she had to say basically echoed what most of her castmates have said: that it was one of the hardest things she’s ever done.

Cohan, who plays Maggie on the show, didn’t give any spoilers as to what might happen in the last episode of the season. But she did say that after reading the script, she didn’t even want to show up on set when it was time to film.

“Hearing the word ‘finale’ gives me a physical reaction because it’s the hardest day on set that I’ve ever had in my life. I never even imagined that as an actor you could have that experience. It’s one of the most raw experiences that I think any of us have ever had. Andy talks about being late to work; I didn’t want to go to work that day. It took a really, really long time for everybody to feel okay again after the finale, let’s put it that way,” Lauren Cohan told Comicbook.com.

Fans of the show have been trying in vain to figure out what the finale will bring, although there’s almost no doubt that a character we love will lose their life, more than likely at the hands of the nefarious Negan, played by Jeffrey Dean Morgan. Negan hasn’t made an appearance on the show yet, but in the comics, he’s a dark character who carries around a deadly baseball bat. If you watched the most recent episode, then you’ll remember those photos Glenn found tacked to the wall; those were likely supposed to be the aftermath of Negan’s rage.

If you’ve been following what the stars of the show are up to, you might be aware that Lauren Cohan has cut her hair pretty dramatically, which has led to many theories that Maggie will be the one to die during the finale. Showrunners have kept us guessing, however, as the show has strayed from the books in the past and will continue to do so.