Jessa Duggar Seewald is expecting her first baby with hubby Ben Seewald in November. She is fast learning, however, that her pregnancy is a bit bittersweet when compared to sister Jill Duggar Dillard’s.

Jill Duggar’s baby was born on a TLC 19 Kids and Counting special, so she could look forward to sharing the blessed event with her fans. Jessa Duggar won’t have that experience, thanks to big brother Josh Duggar.

In addition to being one of Josh Duggar’s sexual molestation victims, Jessa Duggar is upset that because of Josh, the family’s reality show was cancelled by TLC last month.

“It is now bittersweet, because it’s not lost on [Jessa] that Jill giving birth to Israel got an entire TLC special devoted to it,” a source who has worked closely with the Duggar family says in an interview with People magazine.

ICYMI: TLC's doc 'Breaking the Silence' featuring Jill & Jessa Duggar will air this month http://t.co/yFNiEbQShO pic.twitter.com/fgIpJjmQOs

— Yahoo TV (@YahooTV) August 16, 2015

“Jessa would have liked to have had the same sort of platform to give thanks, show what a miracle she feels her child is and express her gratitude,” the source continues. But with the cancellation of 19 Kids and Counting in May, “the show isn’t there to chronicle this happy time, and even though she’s posting on social media, the scandal still gets brought up by commenters. So much has changed for Jessa compared to what Jill experienced, and it can’t be changed back. And that’s sad for her.”

Brother Josh Duggar has just admitted to more sexual deviance, too. Just days after word hit the media about two Ashley Madison accounts, he admits to having an addiction to pornography and to cheating on his wife, Anna Duggar.

Jessa (Duggar) Seewald jokes that her belly button is 'like a pop-up turkey timer' http://t.co/si3aL5gt0B pic.twitter.com/BWACk3lHq6

— People magazine (@people) August 14, 2015

Jessa Duggar–along with sister Jill Duggar Dillard–will appear on a TLC special on August 30. The special documentary–to be aired without any commercial interruption–is called Breaking the Silence, and is about survivors of sexual abuse. Jessa Duggar and sister Jill both admitted to being two of their brother’s five victims.

Perhaps Jessa Duggar can separate herself from her family for a while and concentrate on making her own life with husband Ben. Maybe that will help provide a bit of perspective on the troubles the entire family has endured at the hands of her eldest sibling.

Of course those who follow the former 19 Kids and Counting family, realize there’s likely no way Jessa Duggar will do any such thing.