“Emotionally paralyzed” and “overly fatalistic and bleak” are just some of the words used to describe Adam Lanza, the man who gunned down 20 first-graders and six teachers at Sandy Hook Elementary school on December 14, 2012.

According to a recently-released police report regarding the 20-year-old, he had a lifelong obsession with death and mass murder, and dealt with a variety of mental diseases. However, although the report was quite extensive, the mentally-disturbed Lanza still remains quite a mystery.

Before shooting his mother four times in the head while she slept and then ultimately killing himself, Lanza composed scores of poems and stories in his lifetime, many of which dealt with the murdering of children. The composition The Big Book of Granny featured a section entitled “Granny’s Clubhouse of Happy Children,” in which the main character traveled with a rifle gun that was used to murder and terrorize children and other citizens.

Another chapter, entitled “Dora the Beserker” – an obvious knock-off of the children’s television show Dora the Explorer – tells the tale of a girl named Dora, who with the help of her sidekicks Shoes the monkey and Swiper the racoon, hurt children in a day care.

In the seventh grade, Lanza also composed essays about war that were so graphic they could not be shared with anyone but the school principal.

Although Lanza’s stories cover horrific depictions of murder and aggression, he was also able to create poems so touching they brought the audiences to tears.

School officials state that Lanza’s parents weren’t upfront about his mental illnesses, which were thought to be Asperger’s syndrome – a form of autism that is non-violent – and Profound Autism Spectrum disease.

In school, Lanza would sit by himself and refuse to interact with other students. However, he would spend most weekends at the local movie theater playing the video game Dance Dance Revolution.

According to the reports, Lanza went into Sandy Hook elementary that ill-fated day because he was jealous of the students there, and believed his mother, a volunteer at the school, loved them more than she loved him.

Lanza and his mother, Nancy, lived alone together, although towards the end of both their lives, only communicated via email. Lanza didn’t leave his room for three months, and Nancy had recently told her friends she never “felt in any personal danger living with Adam.”

A few days later, Lanza ended her life, his own and 26 other innocent teachers and children.

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