Kelly Clarkson left everyone in tears after a moving rendition of her song Piece by Piece the final season premier of American Idol last week and the songstress opened up to Ryan Seacrest about her absentee father who inspired the son.
In an interview with Seacrest on Monday, Clarkson told the radio and Idol host that she was inspired by her dad, but also by her loving husband, Brandon Blackstock, who is the father of their 20-month-old daughter, River Rose.
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"Watching my husband love on his daughter all the time, you know, go to her events and just be there and, like, be present is, like, hard to watch but beautiful to watch,” Clarkson told Seacrest. “I know that my kids are going to have that. Y'all are totally going to make me cry on this interview. I'm so glad you can't see me."
The 33-year-old American Idol alum, who is expecting their second child, realized just how much her absentee father affected her when she became a mother herself.
"I don't even think I understood the gravity of [my relationship with my father] until I was pregnant with [River Rose]," she said. "I was like, 'I cannot imagine not seeing this kid to his or her full potential and just seeing what she's going to do, what she's going to be like.’ … I don't think I knew how much that affected me until writing [‘Piece By Piece’]. I definitely didn't know how it would affect me like it does when I sing it live because that's not fun. It's awesome, but it's kind of sad that so many relate to this song."
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Clarkson told Seacrest that she has forgiven her father and is “not angry” with him.
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"I'm 33 years old, I'm a grown woman. But it's more of that thing where you can try your hardest to salvage relationships — and I did — but at the end of the day, if you keep getting hurt by someone because they just don't know how to properly love people, it's just not worth it," said Clarkson. "It's not worth the strain in your heart and it starts to bleed into your other relationships and it becomes super dysfunctional.”