Vicki Gunvalson suffered a devastating loss while filming a scene for The Real Housewives Of Orange County this season, and the moment aired on Monday night as fans watched Gunvalson collapse from the weight of the news.

Vicki was at a party at Shannon Beador’s home when she received a phone call that changed her life: her mother had passed away suddenly in her sleep. Because she hadn’t been ill, the death came as a shock and Gunvalson broke down in the kitchen as the other housewives came running in to find out what was going on.

“I just want my mom back. I want my mom. I have to go see my mom right now. I want to be with my mom. I need her every day. I need her so bad. Who’s going to worry about me? I don’t have parents now. I need my parents. I need my mom,” Vicki said in the heartbreaking clip.

Vicki was very close with her mother and said she had just spoken to her that morning, with no clue that anything was wrong. She later said that she couldn’t imagine how she was going to function with the loss.

“I wasn’t ready to stop learning from my mom. I really don’t know how I’m going to function. I need her in my life. I don’t know why we have to die. I’ll miss my mom’s spunk. She had so much love for life. I don’t want this to be real.”

The episode was filmed in February but just now made it to air, and a devastating clip from the moment Vicki received the phone call began making rounds on the web earlier this year, close to Mother’s Day. Vicki took to Twitter to address the fact that Bravo chose that time to air the clip, saying it was a “terrible thing to relive”. Gunvalson received quite a bit of fan support, however, and took the time to thank everyone for their kind words on Monday night after the show aired.

“I wanted to take a second to thank each and everyone of you for your kind words this evening. They mean the world to me!” she wrote.

Vicki Gunvalson and the other housewives have said that this season is one of the most real in terms of the things they go through, with Tamra Judge saying it’s not all about silly drama.

“I think it’s a really good season this year. We have a birth, my granddaughter, we have a death, we have everything in between. It’s really real life stuff going on. It’s not like, ‘You didn’t invite me to a party! You took my chair!’ It’s not that stuff…” Judge told E! News.