Lamar Odom’s marriage to Khloe Kardashian may be over, but in the latest episode of Keeping Up With The Kardashians which aired Sunday, Kardashian expressed her frustration at not knowing what was happening to her ex-husband in a conversation with her brothers Brandon and Brody Jenner. Odom had been married to Kardashian for four years before she filed for divorce in December 2013.

On Sunday’s episode of Keeping Up With The Kardashians, the Jenner brothers asked Kardashian about Odom while they were all on vacation in Thailand and she responded with, “Can’t find him.” She said, however, that she still needed to know how he was and look out for him, implying that she still cared deeply for his welfare.

For the first time, she hinted at the reasons why their marriage ended, admitting that Odom had extramarital affairs and was fighting drug addiction, which had ruined his basketball career. “No one knew. Until he got so sloppy and started messing around with all those girls, and all those girls want to do is get their 10 seconds of fame, I can’t really talk about it, I want to start crying,” she explained.

Odom is thought to be missing since he flew to New York. He signed with the New York Knicks for the remainder of the 2013-2014 season but did not appear at their last game. He was waived by the team on July 11.

The professional basketball player will always be on his ex-wife’s mind as she worries about his well-being even after the end of their relationship. “I mean the marriage didn’t work out, not because of me, it wasn’t what I wanted. So for the rest of my life, I’m going to deal with that and worry about him and think about him and want just to protect him,” she said on her show.

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