Katey Sagal, 60, spoke out Wednesday following Tuesday’s shocking Sons of Anarchy episode that still has fans of the show trying to reconcile what exactly happened last night.

In the pre-final episode of Sons of Anarchy Tuesday night, fans collectively gasped at the death of Katey Sagal’s character, Gemma Teller.

“I was glad I made it to 12,” Sagal told Vulture, referring to the fact that her character lasted until the second to last episode of the 13-episode final season. “You never know with this show.”

Sagal‘s character was killed by her son Jax, played by Charlie Hunnam, in retaliation for her killing his wife Tara.

“I knew I was going to come to my demise about three or four episodes into this season … Kurt told Charlie and me at the same time that Gemma was going to die at the hands of her son,” she said.

.@KateySagal sounds off about the shocking plot twist last night on @SonsofAnarchy http://t.co/5XdSTxQzmo #FinalRide pic.twitter.com/9WwDzMGS7u

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The Married With Children alum admitted that filming the final scene with Hunnam and her husband, Kurt Sutter, was “extremely emotional.”

“It almost makes me cry talking about it. It was very sweet — those last moments before Charlie and I walked out to the garden, we were just crying and hugging each other, and then we’d roll … It wasn’t only Jax and Gemma’s farewell, it was Katey and Charlie’s farewell after working together for seven years,” she said.

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Sagal explained why her character turned her back so her son could shoot her.

“It’s part of her mothering and loving him that she feels he needs to kill whoever killed Tara. She feels like she’s doing him that favor. It’s that, combined with the fact that she’s too afraid to do it herself. She needs him to help her do that, and to do it for himself,” she said.

The series finale of Sons of Anarchy airs next Tuesday on FX.