People would probably think Pretty Woman star Julia Roberts has never needed a compliment from anyone about her looks, but she now reveals that she used to wish she’d won “hottest actresses in a bikini” lists when she was younger. In an interview with InStyle for their September issue, of which she’s on the cover, Roberts joked, “When I was younger, I’d think, ‘Oh, I’m the prettiest one. It’s not Halle Berry. It’s not!’ But it is, you know?”

The 46-year-old actor opened up to the magazine about being considered one of the most beautiful women in Hollywood. She admits in retrospect that it was a “godsend” that she never made it to those lists because she realized that it may have become a burden on her to be judged by her physical appearance as she grew older. She’s grateful that she didn’t have the added pressure of making such lists while trying to build her career.

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Roberts acknowledges, though, that her style has evolved through the years and that it takes careful decision-making to look good on the red carpet. “It used to be a friend could call me at 3 in the afternoon and say, ‘I have a premiere tonight. Will you come?’ And I’d just take a shower and go,” she said. Today, she consults with her stylist Elizabeth Stewart, whom she “adores.” However, she cautions against taking fashion too seriously and that in an environment as stressful as the red carpet, it’s important to still be yourself. “So it doesn’t matter how much you dress up or bejewel yourself, you’ve still got to feel like you,” she said.

The Erin Brockovich actor is also swatting away divorce rumors that are plaguing her 12-year-strong marriage with cinematographer Danny Moder. “I always say… that there are only two reasons why people fight: to be right, or to create peace and harmony. If you know which your reason is, that really illuminates why you’re having that conversation,” she said.

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