Tom Sizemore: Drugs, Sex, and Fame Chronicled In Book

    April 29, 2013
    Amanda Crum
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Tom Sizemore has 136 film and television roles under his belt, and for a guy who grew up on the mean streets of Detroit, the fame that came with starring in revered movies such as “Saving Private Ryan” and cult classics like “Natural Born Killers” meant the world. He earned millions, he rubbed elbows with the biggest stars of the day, and, ultimately, he watched it all float away on a river of drugs and illicit sex tapes.

“I’ve led an interesting life, but I can’t tell you what I’d give to be the guy you didn’t know anything about,” Sizemore writes in his new book, “By Some Miracle I Made It Out Of There”. The book details the demons he’s fought in over two decades of working in Hollywood, including a volatile relationship with celebrity madam Heidi Fleiss that began a downward spiral in his career. He says that at one point, he thought he would have to start rethinking his options.

“Bob [Forrest, from Celebrity Rehab] thought I had a future in helping people get sober, and that seemed like a good idea,” he said. “Because, look, I like to read, see movies, look at art, and be around people. That doesn’t exactly set me up for a lot of career options.”

But with a whopping 18 projects due out in 2013 alone, Sizemore is certainly not sitting back and letting his past dictate his future. While the book details gritty subject matter befitting some of his more violent, sleazy onscreen personas, it is also an honest look at the man he was and the man he wants to be. He says the “a-ha moment” came all of a sudden.

“I used to blame my problems on other people,” he said. “But my moment of clarity, if you want to call it that, came when I was looking in the mirror one day and just burst into tears. It wasn’t just that I looked bad, it was that I knew my problem was me. I used to think it was Heidi [Fleiss] or the police trying to find some sort of scapegoat, but I could suddenly see that it was me and that it had always been me.”

Sizemore now says he’s sober and ready to move on, and he’s also ready for fans to gain a new perspective on who he is.

“I have thin skin,” he says. “I’m not a tough guy. I play tough guys in movies and behaved like one in front of the press because I thought that was what a man did. They can’t believe I have a Master’s in Fine Arts, and that I enjoy Shakespeare. I’m essentially a momma’s boy with a good education.”

  • Bob Jones

    I am so very happy that Tom came from the abyss of drugs…Not to many do or can…He is one of my favorite actors….Keep it up Tom…Alot of people are pulling and praying for You……Can’t wait to read the book.

  • Tom Christie

    Tom Sizemore is a great actor who I believe still has a lot to offer us movie goers. I truly wish him the best at being a sober person who can teach others what substance abuse did to him. His own life would make a great movie. Good Luck Tom!


    Tom Christie
    Army Veteran

  • John B.

    I am a journalist and I covered the South Beach Miami party scene during its heyday from 1999 to 2004. I once spent a night partying with Sizemore and his entourage — and I have never before or since seen such an ANIMAL. The guy had an inhuman capacity for drugs, booze and young snatch. Unforgettable. It’s amazing he didn’t croak.

    • J. R. Tomlin

      “Young snatch”? Grow up.

      Another minor actor trying to get attention. Nothing to see. Move along.

  • G Man

    Mr. Sizemore’s colossal talent as an actor to say the very least has always left me most impressed, and I’m glad to read his words of saying that the parts he played were not really him as a person, and that he is getting wiser about the choices of his past, being able to LEAVE THEM THERE .. Tom, if you read this at all, you make me glad for you that you are able to move away from such negativity towards a more constructive future.. I think you got it right about ‘being around people': If it made any difference for you, then you could be a huge trophy for GOD if you just accepted the opportunity and went for it, and your past experience and present TESTIMONY can LEAD A LOT OF OTHERS in your former place, out of that kind of darkness and bondage, so I wish you well as one artist to another. Truly you made the right step when you accepted the truth about the source of your problems, the step of a wiser man, now may you so continue these into your future, and may your health and peace of mind be huge. I’ve always admired your talents Sir, so I’m glad that you will keep doing the things you are so good at.

  • http://webpronews maureen

    I feel the same about being so happy you got out of there, I was sober and clean for over 20 years , have had cancer now for over 12, just drank again and am having trouble with meds due to chemo. People don’t understand and just think you are nothing. And there is no excuse. They only think about themselves and how it looks for them. I wish you the best and pray you stay sober and go and use the gifts god gave you, please remember there is always someone out there to help you if you just ask when you need it, don’t isolate and keep on being the man you were mean’t to be. Forget about what others say that might hurt you , they will never understand, until they walk in your shoes. Good luck and look forward to seeing you at the movies !!!!!

  • http://jcwitmer.blogspot.com Jake

    This guy plays big roles in two of my favorite movies: “Heat” and “Strange Days.” I’ve always imagined him as the lead in a movie idea I’ve had, since his roles in “Strange Days” and “Natural Born Killers.” I think he’s a great actor, and would love to see him in a movie with a libertarian message on the level of “V for Vendetta.” (There’s been a script floating around for years for “The Moon is a Harsh Mistress” and he’d make a great Manuel O’Kelly-Davis, or other character.) Of course, the best of all worlds would be if he could pass the John Ross’s adaptation for “Unintended Consequences” to someone like Michael Mann or the Wachowskis, in exchange for a lead role. (John Ross’s “Unintended Consequences” is probably the best realistic novel ever written about an armed rebellion against the unconstitutional portions of the U.S. government. It is an amazing novel that starts off in the Warsaw ghetto uprising, in WWII, literally in hell.)

    Really cool to see he’s into literature so much. To me, that’s more “badass” than if he was just a beer-and-coke kind of party guy. There’s such a thing as intellectual rebellion, and America needs it now, more than ever. No drugs needed. …Intelligence needed.