Holly Madison has written a tell-all book about life inside the Playboy mansion as Hugh Hefner’s number one bunny.

Here’s a hint: It wasn’t all fluffy tails, fairy tales, and huge parties.

In her new book, Holly Madison shares all of her darkest experiences at the mansion. As Hef’s #1 girl, Holly Madison was the only one on The Girls Next Door series that got to share his bedroom instead of having one of her own.

Holly Madison’s book description on Amazon sums it up in its salacious entirety.

It reads, “A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend….what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies.”

It adds that Holly Madison “opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself. With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars.”

Holly Madison admits that along with depression came suicidal thoughts and dark places in her head.

However, Holly Madison lives a completely different life now. Married to Pasquale Rotella and mom to their toddler-aged daughter, Rainbow, Holly Madison hopes to “lift the veil” on her former life and clear up any misconceptions that were had about her.

“I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion,” Holly Madison said. “I think my stories will surprise people and I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life.”

What do you think about Holly Madison opening up her former life as a Playboy bunny for the world to see?